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Happier Journal :3 OC meme

May. 9th, 2008 | 10:09 pm
mood: tiredtired
music: Hero by Superchick

Did a survey on my  OCs <3 It's like an interview type thing but I wrote it out so it would actually be interesting to people who don't know about my characters (ie. everyone other than my sister). Haha. I'm gonna leave some notes on the characters so some of the stuff makes sense. 

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.

Characters Chosen:
a. Brian Pollock (Mao Xianliang) - Most complex character. Usually acts like a total dick. Especially to women (very sexist). Is very skinny and border-line anorexic (Only eats if he really needs to). Has many other mental problems. Had a very screwed up childhood. Is the CEO and chairman of a Car manufacturing company and is a billionaire. Also certified genius with extremely high IQ.
b. Evan Bartel -  Usually acts like as wise-ass except during serious situations. An extreme military junkie since he was a little boy. He's a ginger (haha). Mostly openly gay which caused problems because he was in the military.  Once he got out of service, he realized he was great in leadership and got a job at the company (At 22). Promoted to President of the company 8 years later after older president died.
c. Penelope Rothenburg - Not much about her. The company secretary. Good friends with Evan. Like a sister.

Picture here PLZ.
Quick drawing that I vomited out on my paper (Just to show you what they look like) xD Most successfully I've ever drawn Penelope. Otherwise. It looks like crap.

Brief comments about story: Huge thing about the story, Brian and Evan are in a relationship (But its bad cuz that Co-worker crap and blah blah. also considering they're both guys it would create a huge scandal because its a huge industry). But they fight ALOT. Also, the other part of the story has to do with the government sabotaging the company's cars causing a whole bunch of crashes, suing them and sending them into bankruptcy (Haha, I guess business class has helped me?). Has to do with economy dropping because oil not selling and blah blah blah. On with the meme thing.

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I hate teenagers

May. 9th, 2008 | 09:54 pm

This is a VERY long winded rant (at least compared to what I usually do) about what I think about teenagers. I may only be 14 but I consider myself a young adult now. The word teenager is an insult to me. Anyways, I'm just cross posting this from myspace. Does anyone else agree with me on this? The only person that has actually taken the time to talk to me (and helped cheer me up about it) was my amazing boyfriend.

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An insult to gay guys?

Mar. 20th, 2008 | 04:13 am
mood: hungryhungry
music: October by Eric Whitacre

    A few minutes ago I was on Youtube and I found that guy Chris Crocker. Making it seem like all gay guys act like women, want to look like women and check out every guy they see. To tell you the truth, out of all the people I've known or made friends with that were homosexual/bisexual, I didn't even know they were until they told me. Only one out of maybe ten people I know acts feminine and he still acts alot like a guy. There were two guys at my church and I didn't even know they were until my boyfriend told me they were half a year later (Though I had a feeling cuz they were always around eachother xD). Yeah... Just felt like getting that out in the open. It just annoys me how every person thinks that every gay/bi person has to be flamboyant. Same with girls. Not every lesbian acts like a male.
    And another thing that annoys me is gay bashing. Please, tell me, what is so disgusting about two people of the same gender being together? A will most likely have something to counter your answer if you're against me. And please don't put the bible stuff on me. I mean, I am more Christian than almost any teenager my age and love God with all my heart but there is stuff in the same book that no one would even think of as a sin in there. I'm looking at my bible right now and I found a few examples:

Eating fat:  Leviticus 7:23
Menstruation and you know what for guys: (Haha I'm immature xD): Leviticus 15:1-33
Wearing clothing of two different materials and planting two different plants together: Leviticus 19:19
Cutting off hair: Leviticus 19: 27
Getting a tattoo: Leviticus 19:28
Sleeping with a woman while she's on her period: Leviticus 20:18

    Thats not even close to all of it. I'm not sure what should be followed and what shouldn't but it would be impossible to follow every single one of those laws. And some of the stuff is just common sense, like... Having a relationship with an animal. I mean... Come on! I'm not gonna go much into anything else. Just felt like ranting a bit.
    Ah man, I love the Lutheran church <3 Only denomination I know of where woman are allowed to be pastors, females are allowed to help run the church, and homosexuality is accepted (Well mostly. Someone left our church because of that gay couple I mentioned earlier D: Silly old people).

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OEKAKI TYMMM!!!!! Storge and Mania

Mar. 4th, 2008 | 07:33 pm
mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
music: Bizarre Love Triangle by New Order

Felt like doodling on Shiipainter. I suck at oekaki. Darn tremors and slippery tablet D: Anyways, they're two of my OC's. I mentioned them in the OC meme I did a couple months ago.
I also mentioned in the essay I posted right before this, different love personalities and twp went along almost perfectly with my characters :D

So anyways, nothing wrong with the picture, just helping people with dial-up and slow computers. Unless you consider two guys standing next to each other wrong xD I hope not. Anyways...

(Probably gonna draw some Gyakuten Saiban fanart soon. In a fanarty mood)

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Phychology of Love rant

Mar. 4th, 2008 | 01:04 pm
mood: distresseddistressed
music: :osing my Religion by REM

    Okay, before I start, I'd like to mention that right after art and law, my third biggest interest in psychology. And its actually I job I'd probably do good at but I'm not as interested in it as much as art and law (And I can't be in law, as much as I want to, because of my abnormally low logic skills and hemophobia) xD Though psychology is required in animation courses because of character/story development so I'm good.
    Anyways, getting to the point. I'm guessing you've all seen the myspace bulletins and e-mails that go along the lines of a guy and a girl being together, one dies or breaks up with the other, then one dies usually leaving a note saying something like "Without your love I would die".
    I'm sure most of you have never heard of the taxonomy of love (I didn't know about it until a week ago). According to the paper I got in English class there are five different types of love: Eros, ludus, storge, mania, and pragma (I'm a raging storge). I feel like I'm the only one who notices that these teenagers probably have some mental health issues. Especially since most couples haven't known each other longer than maybe two or three years. If you die just because the person you love doesn't love you back, you've got problems. I mean, I can understand someone getting deeply depressed but not enough to want to die and actually try to go through with it, unless they happen to be in the maniac category of love (Look at the reference that I gave at the bottom of the blog). As you can see, maniac is the last thing you would probably want to be. Anyways, most teenagers don't even know what love is (Most, not all). Though, according to my class, most teenagers are considered to be ludus.
    Another e-mail/bulletin I want to point out is the one where the girl tells the guy that she likes him but then he tells her he doesn't like her because she's ugly and then she goes and slits her wrists and writes on the mirror, "Am I pretty enough now?" and dies. Thats an even more mentally unstable person. I know these are made up but... Come on. Thats not sad, its just disturbing. Just because some guy you like says you're ugly doesn't mean you have to give everything up in your life and leave a big mess for someone to clean up after (Not to mention traumatizing your own family). Its just wrong... I've had to deal with that crap similar to that with bad friends all through my life but do you see me cutting my wrists and writing stuff on walls with my blood. I don't think so. I'm not heartless for not thinking its sad (Though according to the e-mail, I am), I'm just being real. Case closed.
(I know people who are like the person in the e-mail and they really need professional help. Really. And seriously, anyone with all/most the mania characteristics need it too)

And for your own enjoyment :D
* Believes childhood was happy - Warm relationship with parents and siblings.
* Is ready for love and for the risks it will involve, but is not anxiously searching.
* Knows definately what physical type attracts them most and is quite demanding.
* Begins with partner who is a stranger at first encounter - "Love at first sight"
* Seeks a deep, persuasive rapport with partner as quickly as possible.
* Shares development and control of the relationship.
* Elicits reciprocal feelings from the beloved but does not demand them.
* May be exclusive but not possesive or fearful of rivials.
* Considers love to be life's most important activity.
* Idealizes love alot. - May be downfall of this type of love.

* Believes childhood was average. Has no complaints.
* Is not ready to commit to anyone in a love relationship.
* Likes a variety of different physical types and can switch easily from one to another.
* Begins with a stranger who has a physical appearance with the lover's wide range.
* Goes on with life as usual after meeting beloved - Does not fall in love; Has no intentions for the future.
* Avoids seeing partner too often.
* May be anxious about future with partner who is too intense.
* Expects partner to control themselves and play the game for mutual enjoyment.
* Encourages other relationships.
* Thinks love is not as important as work or some other activities.

* Comes from a happy, secure family background.
* Is ready if love comes along but is not looking.
* Has no consious definition of a favored physical type.
* Goes on with life as usual after becoming aware of "love"
* More of the type of love that is seen between siblings.

* Feels childhood was unhappy; difficult relationship with parents; not content with life.
* Anxious to fall in love, yet expects love to be difficult and painful.
* Is uncertain of what type attracts them, and is often looking for a combination of contradictory qualities - May dislike the appearance of partner.
* Becomes intensly preoccupied with thoughts of partner and need for partner's love.
* Begins to imagine the future together with considerable anxiety and much wishful thinking.
* Wants to see partner at least daily, and is easily upset but delays and postponements.
* Will create problems if there are none, to intensify feelings.
* Periodically tries to calm and control own feelings but can't help themselves.
* Experiences a loss of self control over feelingsand direction of relationship.
* Tries to force the partner to show more affection and commitment.
* Unable to break off the relationship.
* Becomes extemely possessive.
* Becomes convinced the life without partner's love is hardly worth living.

* Feels master of life and achievement
* Looks for a compatible mate.
*Is highly pragmatic in looking for a mate - i.e. Who will make a good father or mother?

Source (From An Exploration Of the Ways of Loving by John Alan Lee)

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Love my friends...

Nov. 4th, 2007 | 10:43 am
mood: irritatedirritated
music: Arms of an angel

    I loved my friends but why is it that every teenager nowadays think cutting themselves or talking about killing themselves makes their life any better. I mean, I love my friends, but they're idiots. Suicide doesn't solve anything. The only suicide that made the world better was Hitler's and it still upset alot of people. The only thing that really depresses me is when my friends cut themself. Every person I look at, theres slash marks across their arm or something. Truthfully, maybe 1 out of 5 people I see. Cutting has actually been proven to make people even more depressed after. Theres other ways to get rid of stress. Much safer and healthier ways.
    The only time I EVER though of killing myself was when I was depressed in fifth grade and this creepy guy kept on saying weird nasty things to me and hit me once. Also, my best friend was going out to beer parties. After that, I came to a realization that it would hurt others around me. SUICIDE IS SELFISH. Thats what people don't understand. Think about others, not yourself. Sure, you're having problems with a boyfriend, thats no excuse to kill yourself though. After the creepy guy incident, I've had even worse happen and never once thought of killing myself again. Also, I have never in my LIFE ever thought of cutting myself (though I do have hemophobia and a fear of sharp objects).
     There was a time when I was sick and my mom had to get surgery and she almost wasn't able to because she got sick too (later I found out not from me). I thought I was the one that made her sick and to add on to that, it was my dad's birthday. Well, my mom did get the surgery but she was spaced out on Christmas and wasn't able to move around much. Not long after that my grandpa had cardiac arrest and my parents went to Tucson to stay with him for a week. A day after they came back, my grandpa died. They went back to Tucson to stay with my grandma and missed having new years with us. To add on top of that, I lost my friends at school from being so upset and started to spend lunch by myself. This all happened in the course of about 2 and a half weeks. The whole time I never one thought of causing harm to myself. What did I do? I just carried on. And life is pretty good right now. Even though I've been through alot of sucky stuff, I'm still generally a really happy person.
Well, I think I better blow off steam on my homework.

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Original Characters meme

Nov. 2nd, 2007 | 04:15 am
mood: chipperchipper
music: Happy boys and Happy girls by Aqua

Choose twelve of your original characters, in any particular order. Then, answer the questions that follow, but DON'T LOOK AT THE QUESTIONS BEFORE YOU PICK THE CHARACTERS!

1. Allen - An ex-convict in his last year of high school who was born in Mexico grew up in a small city outside of LA. He's gay for Dean. Got arrested for beating a kid with a PVC pipe. Also beat up a bunch of other people and has stolen alot. Black hair, a darker tan skin and is slightly muscular.
2. Dean - Also a teenager in his last year of high school. Has an abusive alcoholic mom and lost his dad in eighth grade to cancer. Gay for Allen XD Tall and VERY skinny/underweight. Caucasian. Has green eyes, red hair and freckles. Hair is shoulder length.
3. Father Kyle - A Catholic priest who goes to Africa to adopt a child. Falls in love with a woman he met on the airplane and has to choose between her or the church. Blonde hair pulled back into a ponytail. Tall. Blue eyes. About 23 years old.
4. Mari - An alien who is brought to a different planet similar to Earth. Brown hair, neon green eyes with no pupils. She has elf like ears and four stripes on her face. Average size for a woman. 21 years old.
5. Brian - (Edited for updated storyline) A famous engineer in the later 21st century. Has a court suit filed against him for an invention of the all-Hybrid car (Framed by the government because it was screwing up the economy. Less oil being used) Has an addiction to smoking and coffee and is a totally sexist, straightforward, selfish dick (Pretty much hated by anyone who works with him other than Evan). Abused for the first five years of his life until his father left one night and his mother didn't pay much attention to him. Half caucasian and half Chinese. Messy black hair and wears glasses all the time. Had defined cheek bones. Looks older than he really is because he smokes so much. (He's 28 years old btw). Unsure of his sexuality. Has a gaystache xD Also has a thing for business suits with stripes and/or lots of buttons.
6. Evan - (Edited for updated storyline) Brian's assistant hired right after the case started to help with paperwork and bringing him coffee. Lost parents to a car crash at a pretty early age but raised by his aunt and uncle with his sister giving him a pretty happy life. Generally happy and playful person but serious at appropriate times. Gay but you can't tell by looking at him. He's 30 years old and has reddish brownish gelled back hair (Well, gelled back most of the time). Looks younger than Brian though. Also wears glasses. Mostly just wears slacks and button up shirts w/ tie. Not much of a jacket person.
7. Hireshi - The last gay guy I'm putting on here XD Isn't paired with anyone but likes to bother Raziel. He's Spanish and lives with Lorelei and Raziel because the put a room up for rent.  Actually a very powerful sorceror but almost never acts serious. Not the brightest caryon in the box. Pretty camp but definitely not when fighting. Tan skin and black hair brushed to one side. Has a gotee. (Yeah, I love the facial hair XD) 25 years old.
8. Raziel -  Created by one of my friends. Turns to wolf on full moons from accident in his childhood. Very serious and has a drinking problem. Is on the run from his sister who is trying to kill him. Shoulder length blue hair and brown eyes. Slightly muscular from travel. About 23 years old.
9. Artemis - An albino girl who is left on the streets who found shelter in Raziel and Lorelei's home. Has a baby wolf who is actually her own. Experienced a similar accident to Raziel. Can turn to wolf on own. White hair in two braids. Big red eyes. Always wears a denim hat with a flower on it. Short. 17 years old.
10. Lorelei - Created by my sister. A woman whose family was killed one night and is out for revenge. Raziel joins her to search for the killer. Has brown hair put up in a bun. Scar on left eye from being attacked by Raziel's sister a little bit after the beginning of the story. About 22 Years old.
11. Satoshi - A prince who is blamed for killing his own twin sister who was actually murdered in front of him when he was only twelve.  A scar on his cheek from being stabbed by his brother. Wavy black hair. Looks Japanese (based on another planet).
12. Tsuyako - Satoshi's brother who is out to kill Satoshi because of his sister's death. Very violent and has a complex personaliy. Almost always has a smile on his face. Even when he's mad. Cur;y black hair. Looks Japanese. And yet again... Gotee.

(Wow... That took longer than I thought...)

1. Who would make a better college professor, 6 or 11?
Probably Evan because he has more experience with great minds and has above average intellegance.

2. Do you think #2 is hot? How hot?
Not as hot as Allen but yeah. Gingers are hot. >:D

3. 12 sends 8 on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?
Duh, kill Satoshi. And Raziel could do it. I mean, He killed an old man for no reason for Pete's sake!

4. What is or would be 9's favorite book?
I don't know. She probably wouldn't even know how to read.

5. Would it make more sense for 2 to swear fealty to 6, or the other way around?
Yeah, that would probably work. Dean's a wussy.

6. For whatever reason, 5 is looking for a roommate. Should 5 share a studio apartment with 9 or with 10?
He would make perfect room mates with Raziel but I think Raziel would feel uncomfortable thanks to Hireshi. Pretty much developed a homophobia because of him.

7. 2, 7, and 12 have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?
Wow. Those are the most diverse people chosen... Probably just fight the whole time about where to eat. XD

8. 3 challenges 10 to a duel. What happens?
Lorelei would kick his priest butt!

9. If 1 stole 8's most precious possession, how would 8 get it back?
He would threaten to kill him and most likely could.. Though Allen might pull a random object on him and beat him with it like all the other people he's beaten up.

10. Suggest a title for a story in which 7 and 12 both attain what they most desire.
"The transvestite."

11. What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4 and 1 to work together?
Mari would seduce whoever the villain is and Allen will sneak up behind him and hit him with a baseball bat.

12. If 7 visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?
That would be the greatest day of my life. We'd tell stupid jokes to each other all day.

13. If you could command 3 to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?
Turn Lutheran? XD

14. Does anyone on your friends list write or draw anything regarding 11?
Only Dean has been drawn by another person.

15. If 2 had to choose sides between 4 and 5, which would it be?
Definitely Mari. Brian would scare the crap outta him.

16. What might 10 shout while charging into battle?

17. If you chose a song to represent 8, which song would you choose?
" Mad World" by Gary Jules. Goes along better with Brian. My friend said that song describes him though >.<

18. 1, 6, and 12 are having dim sum at a Chinese restaurant. There is only one scallion pancake left, and they all reach for it at the same time. Who gets to eat it?
Thats hard. They'd probably all kill each other and the scallion just stays there for the rest of eternity. I mean seriously, those are my most belligerant characters.

19. What might be a good pick-up line for 2 to use on 10?
"Wanna have a threesome with two guys?" XD

20. What would 5 most likely be arrested for?
I don't know. He's so quiet, any type of crime suits him. Probably a money hoax.

21. What is 6's secret?
He has dirty fantasies? XD Bad Evan!

22. If 11 and 9 were racing to a destination, who would get there first?
Artemis. She can run like a wolf... Cuz she pretty much is one!

23. If you had to walk home through a bad neighborhood late at night, would you feel safer in the company of 7 or 8?
Hireshi. He'd make me laugh and kill people with his magic.

24. 1 and 9 reluctantly team up to save the world from the threat posed by 4's sinister secret organization. 11 volunteers to help them, but it is later discovered that he is actually a spy for 4. Meanwhile, 4 has kidnapped 12 in an attempt to force their surrender. Following the wise advice of 5, they seek out 3, who gives them what they need to complete their quest. What title would you give this fic?
"I smoked crack when I wrote this"
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Requesting a picture/Art trades

Oct. 14th, 2007 | 04:26 pm
mood: artisticartistic
music: Tribute by Tenacious D

Since I love drawing so much, I'm letting people take requests and art trades (Though I've never done an art trade yet, it would be really cool). When doing a request, I'll only do it if it seems pretty easy and looks interesting. OCs usually don't make me interested unless they're older guys (Cuz thats what I enjoy drawing the most XD). For art trades, you can ask for OCs, and I'll probably ask you to draw one of mine. I probably have over thirty and most of them are easy to draw :D
So anyways, some rules:
1. I can draw romance: het, shonen-ai, & shoujo-ai.
2. No pedophelia, shouta, anthromorphic or hardcore yaoi/yuri/hentai/etc.
3. I will draw soft-core and middle-core (Haha, term I made up with my friends. Ask if you don't really get what it means.)
4. I'm horrible at drawing animals.
5. I have trouble drawing fighting.
6. Please be polite when asking.

And for samples of how my drawings look. (Requests and art trades won't be watermarked. These are just samples) (Also, they're just samples. Thats why they're so small)

Sample pic 1: Looks kinda weird because its done on tablet. Don't usually use tablet.
Sample pic 2:
Sample pic 3:

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